A Broken Fellowship

There are very few people whom I consider as my close friends. I knew all these while that some of them are undependable, unreliable. However, I never thought that any of them would disappoint me when things were important. I was proven wrong. When one person cannot rely on their "brothers" one tends to wonder what friendship is all about.

I believe I have never turned down requests for help when my close friends ask for it. I do not think I have disappointed any of you when it really mattered. When people dissed you, I defended you even if you did not ask for it. I was on your side when when you were clearly in the wrong. When you were in physical, financial or morale trouble, I helped you out. We planned everything so long ago. Everything was going to be alright. Until you all screwed up, big time. No sorry, no apology, no nothing.

The word "kakilang" used to mean so much to me. Now it does not mean a damn thing to me. Just a memory in the distant past. Sure we had great times together. Friends who are fun but unreliable when it matters, are friends I rather not have.

So much for "Money can earn later. But friends cannot be lost".